When all else fails, do your best and know that has to be good enough.
There is no worse feeling that inadequacy. It is hard to describe to someone that you have exhausted yourself doing all you can to be the very best version of yourself. Everyone has their vices, issues, and struggles. I sometimes talk myself into thinking that I could be able to forget about things of the past and not bring them into the future. But is that really possible? I have recently gone through struggles, struggles I believe are brought on by God to teach me lessons I ran from learning prior. So, with that, I think my point is… that you can attempt to forget, you can try to run from dealing with things, but – at some point, God will bring you through it so you can be that better version of yourself that we are all striving for.
So back to that inadequacy. The true definition of the word is “lacking the quality or quantity required; insufficient for a purpose.” This is all in the eye of the beholder, sometimes not at the fault of the other. They see and feel what they see and feel. I feel many times that I have met or surpassed the required quality or quantity of what is asked. But, when the other person feels it is “insufficient for the purpose” … there is no amount of defending or persuasion that can make them believe it. You are spinning your wheels. The decision is no longer yours. Yet, another struggle. In hindsight, a role reversal that you now have to bear, that you can no longer run from. I imagine God is teaching me yet another lesson in humility and how relationships really must work.
All that to say… whatever it is that you are facing, in whatever struggle you are in – isn’t it beautiful to know that God cares enough about us to teach us lessons that will enrich us?! Like a parent to a young child. Though the child does not understand at the time, what they are being forced to do is for their own betterment. So, do your best, forgive yourself, and know that God is fighting for you. Know that you are good enough and trust in that you can do only what you can do most.
Romans 5:3-5 “ Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.”